hey everyone !
Today is a little bit different of a post for you. I want to do a morning talk about confidence and self acceptance. I know sometimes it sounds cliche to talk about loving yourself but in the past few weeks I have been struggling with this issue a lot. The fact that each day is a blessing should be something we do not take for granted, I am somehow caught in this cycle of "saraness". Sure I made that up but that's the only way I can describe it.
I am going to use this as an open journal for you all to see the inside of my thinking. I am hard on myself and I do that to me. It is 100% self inflicted on the willingness to want to be perfect. We all have a desire to be loved, accepted and appreciated but when that doesn't happen what do you do? For me I just tend to shut everyone OUT. I focus on me and that leads me to become very close minded and I have a very hard time accepting me. I always come to the conclusion that there is something wrong with me and that no one can ever accept me as I am. So what do I do? I workout harder to numb myself from life. I choose to focus on ONE thing to distract myself and I start to just shut down. It's a bad cycle and something that needs to stop.
I always want to help others. In helping others I am helping myself overcome the things I don't want to talk about. I want to be that friend to others so they don't feel the loneliness of life. I want to offer acceptance and love to those who may not feel it from others. When I can help influence others, I am helping myself. So I want to be able to show people that I am just human too. I am hard on myself because I want to feel accepted as well. A lot goes into the reasons we do things. For me I want to help others through their problems because you all are helping me. The more I can learn and teach the more we all grow.
Life is about challenging ourselves. I want to challenge myself to be a better friend to ME and not always push myself to the back. I think we all need to do that. We all need to be able to look in the mirror and love, accept and appreciate the person staring back at us. We deserve the best out of life. The problem is we try to allow others to dictate that. Today, YOU dictate your life. YOU follow your dreams and YOU learn to accept and love the person you are.