Disordered Eating...A very serious and common problem that many people face everyday.
Today's topic is going to become very REAL very fast. It is something
that needs to be addressed and many people feel ashamed and ignore this
problem instead I am going to speak out about it !!!
For those of you who don't know my story I will let you into my struggles with disordered eating. I have been overcoming
an eating disorder for about 10 years. Yes, my life has been a battle
over food and the lack of respect for myself. I have been lucky enough
to have amazing people in my life that gave me the biggest wake up call
of my life and I am truly thankful they were brutal and honest with me.
In college my friend introduced me to the gym and lifting weights. I was
HOOKED ! She reminded me that in life STRENGTH is more beautiful and
empowering than skinny.
I took the gym as my outlet. Using the
weights to drive my health in a better direction. In order to be strong
you have to eat to support your goals. I used this as my motivation to
challenge my disordered eating and I found my inner passion. My drive to
overcome this disease is what motivated me to leave my anorexia and
bulimia in the past. It is why I am a personal trainer today. I promised
myself that I would do anything in my abilities to give to others the
give of inner strength and finding health, fitness, and nutrition to
empower your life. In order to have an amazing life you need to treat
yourself with respect from the inside with self-love and self-
acceptance. I want everyone to know that even though I was faced with
challenges, I chose to fight my way into a healthier life. I STRUGGLE
... damn I struggle and I want you all to know that even on bad days, we
still have the ability to overcome the past and choose to be better !!!
Let me explain what disordered eating is and why I feel its so
important to speak on this issue !
What is disordered eating...
Anytime you overindulge and then try to compensate for it, you’re
engaging in the “binge-punish” cycle. Whether it is in the form of
purging food or through exercise. If you feel any guilt after eating you
are dealing with some disordered eating habit. People perceive their
behavior as “bad” when they lose control, and then they perceive their
behavior as “good” the next day when they try to undo the damage. A lot
of people go through this cycle every single day and don’t realize it’s
disordered… all you see is the weight gain that happens as a result. It
turns into yo-yo fad dieting, gaining and losing, then losing control
feeling guilty and stop exercising because you don't see the point if
nothing is changing.
How did eating become so intense and why
is there such a stigma on becoming thin? Our society likes to make
things complicated. Not only is there a new diet that comes out weekly
claiming to lose weight fast but they combine photo-shop to make even
the ideal look unreal. Breaking free from this cycle is possible. It
takes dedication and commitment everyday. It comes from trusting
yourself and having control over you again and not letting the eating
Step one is to nourish your body. If you are
famished you will reach for whatever you see, healthy or not. If you
have an association with it such as good feelings or comfort, trying to
stop eating is the hard part that begins that binge-punish cycle. In
order to break this habit feed your body good ALL DAY long !
Step two is to make sure you have healthy food options always available
to you. I am a huge preacher on prep cooking your foods at the beginning
of the week and then having them ready to go at any given time. Fail to
plan, plan to fail !!!
The final step is to ask yourself
"why" ?? Why are you eating those foods? Are you hungry, bored,
stressed? Many time we eat for emotions not because our bodies are
hungry for them. Unfortunately we also eat the high carb, sugar loaded,
high calorie foods because they make us "feel good" in the moment. Our
whole lives food and good times are associated together. Think about
it.. BIRTHDAYS-HOLIDAY'S- SPECIAL OCCASIONS... what do they all have in
common?? Food !!! And good comfort food !!! That starts the association
between food and feel good which is why disordered eating almost feels
normal when you become stressed ! It becomes normal to use food and a
feel better mechanism and then if you eat and eat more you might feel
better in the moment... then the guilt and then the cycle begins !
Self compassion doesn’t come naturally for most of us because we
operate under the assumption that if you’re hard on yourself you’ll be
more successful. This is a giant misconception and I think it’s what
keeps people locked in their disordered eating. If you are struggling
with this issue, be compassionate with yourself and give yourself some
forgiveness. Seek the help of friends who you trust and value their
opinions. Learn to trust yourself and find different ways to cope with
your emotions !!
If you’re trying to change your disordered
eating you have to change your disordered thinking. See if you can let
go of the smallness goal because ironically, the strategies that make
you weigh less initially are the same exact ones that either backfire
and make you gain weight in the long run, or enslave you in a life of
When you lose weight without building muscle you
become a “smaller” person or known as skinny-fat. You have to eat
fewer and fewer calories because your body is not expending as much. But
building muscle changes that. It makes you expend more energy, and it
requires you to consume more energy to grow. Your metabolism is faster
and you burn more at rest. Use the gym to your advantage and push
yourself out of your comfort zone !!!
Don't enslave yourself
to disordered eating. Don't fall into that binge-punish cycle and try to
show yourself compassion !! I found my strength through the power of
the weights. I found my life again by challenging my mind. I am still
working on overcoming my eating disorder. I have good days and bad just
like all of you. My control is what I use to keep me focused to not let
my eating disorder define me but I define myself. I am in control and I
will control how I feel !! Find love for yourself and treat yourself
with respect !!
3 rounds of:
15 clean and presses
10 one leg step ups (20 toatal )
15 bench hop overs (30 total)
100 mt climber
25 sit ups
10 ab rollouts
15 kettlebell swing squat
10 one arm rows per arm
15 hand release pushups
25 plank jacks
20 jump squats
15 ab sit up with right and left twist